Well, I have been meaning to write this out for sometime now, and today fitted the slot just fine as I had to login to sort something else out. So, In the last week or so I have started to notice That people have been fading futher and futher away from me, I try to speak to them, And I am either ignored and slung away, Or spoke to in pity, But there not even listening. Then When I try to speak to them about it, They don't even listen to that, Or they give me a reason such as ' Sorry, I have had a bad time recently ' Well, Firstly, By them having a ' bad time ' that reflects onto me, As It makes me feel like ribbish, Being ignored. Secondly that maybe there in a bad mood, But they don't need to blame and show that on me. And if they had told me that in the first place, I would not be annoyed at it. But that is more of a last minute lie from them, Just to keep me of there back for another day.. There suppose to Be friends...

Also, This part it to my brother ' Toadsanime '.
Right, You may not like what I am going to say, You may like it. But you asked me to read it as you know I can understand, Therefore I guess you want my feelings and opinions. Although, Yes you are going to be treated differently, Sadly that cannot be changed, But you did know that years ago, You even told me that when this all started. As for what friends are saying, Thats because they don't know you feel like that. Flipping tell that it's not funny when they call you ' fag ' and they should stop, If they don't stop, Then warm them that if they don't stop, You will have to stop hanging with them ( Although I have only ever heard 1-2 people call you fag, And I would not call them a friend anyway )
Now, For the Being different / Accepted part. Again yes, People are going to be different with you. But now you may see how I have felt after you have treated me like that. I have never told you this. But when You went though your bad pacth, I was there for you 24/7, And damn I was ' depressed ' as well, As the hole family was, But more so me, As The Knowledge I had about what was happening. As I knew that you tried to kill your self / cut yourself / you were gay way before anyone else. But I still stuck by you and helped you, And I still will. But the thing is, You have never said thank you to me for all the crap I went though for you, for all the talking I done to you, And for stopping you of what you planned to do. Instead on the way to school, You ignored me, Took the pee outta me, And spoke behind my back to the people you walk to school with. Now, Although that made me feel like crap, I had to get over that point. Sadly, You will have to live with that fact that some people are just idiots in the way that the first way they can take the piss outta someone they will. Friends that do it, Are not friends. Simple as that. To be honest, If you were gay / straight / A - sexual Or Bi - sexual, It don't bother me, Your still ryan to me, And that is that really. Anyone else sees that differenly, Then F them.

Well there is my thoughts on it ( I added the bit about me being ignored as I just wanted to show you that A. I know how it feels and B. That although people don't mean to do it, It still happends )

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